Wednesday, December 3, 2008
feeling so scared so very very confused
the lonliness i feel can make me so weak i cannot describe this feeling i cannot explain the things happening to me but i can say that it is what it is
what?thats all?no explosions?
9:57 PM
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Emo kid: I dont have any close friends..
Scarecrow: o well...at least you have friends
Emo kid: I guess
Tough Dude: Fuck care friends just be yourself...
Holy Man: Friends complete you..Make you who you are. They define you. Improve you and Help you
Emo: Kid: Well i dont feel that they really understand me and i dont really know them as much as i like
Holy Man: Maybe you should talk to them about it instead of sulking
Tough Dude: are you kidding?! I dont wanna look like a wimp!
Bystander: Then live with it or get new friends..This is boring!
Bleh: O well..Im going to the army soon anyways
what?thats all?no explosions?
10:47 PM
Been trying to study chemistry for the past few days at home. But only managed to study until chapter 4 and only managed some mcq questions for the first chapter. I think its because i get distracted too easily and i get bored fairly quickly. I keep thinking of her. Still confused and unconfident.. Maybe Ill get more confidence if these pimples clear up haha. I am now keeping my hair up and applying all sorts of face creams and using lots of cleanser when i bathe. Hopefully one of them works. :)
Something wierd happened to my phone today. When i restarted my phone yesterday. It said i had a missed call but when i called her to check she said she didnt call. Maybe its my imagination.
what?thats all?no explosions?
10:33 PM
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Well, prelims are over.Im kinda sure im gonna fail most of it.Argh the negativity! get away from me!
Well Im pretty confused about my feelings now.Why does my heart play such tricks on me. Is it love or is it just raging hormones? Well I have no idea. But now when i see her i do not get the urge. Quite the contrary but i feel like I just want to be near her.
Feeling quite low self esteem sometimes as well. Darn pimples. If it wasnt the fat, it was the teeth, now its the pimples..what is this...
Im glad I froze the blog. Let me think through a few things and I hate if people saw these as signs of weakness. I hate looking weak. YES! Muhahha..
Step 4 is out. Amazing what you can do with just a flash program and music. One of the best flash series ever made. If you haven't seen this before. Start from Step 1. Watch each episode twice then move on to the next.
what?thats all?no explosions?
11:28 AM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Woohoo!Friday!TGIF.Del
msged me to watch Hancock. asked me where wanna watch. Thought at first going jp to watch... Last min told changed to
vivo(!!!) or maybe they decided long ago and i was told last min to go to
vivo.
Yp and Del left first without me. Think i was in the train behind them. Reached the cinema, played a bit of DJ max while waiting for sm. Went to the cinema,lucky haven start. Hancock is quite funny, but the jokes are a bit
repetitive. Will Smith is quite talented.
Today during dinner, I got hit with a sense of
de-
ja-
vu. I experienced the same feelings, same situation, same sadness.
Feels like my opinions
don't matter no more..or ever...feels like
I'm the last to know anything...feels like
im out of it... feels like there are tongues wagging behind my back..feels like
there's something i
don't know...feels like tomorrow's gonna be the same...feels like no matter how hard i try i wont be enough... feels like
im just an extra in a movie...
feels so real yet seems so superficial...feels like they are doing it just to make themselves feel better not because they care...
Heck..its onli how i feel...who the fuck cares.I HATE these fucking insecurities. I always think I think too much but too many instances make it hard to deny the truth.
what?thats all?no explosions?
2:07 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
stress stress stress thats all I have to say for now..
what?thats all?no explosions?
6:17 PM
Friday, April 18, 2008
If anyone was wondering, the song playing is What about Now by Daughtry
What About Now
Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
And are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
As shadows fade into the light,
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
what?thats all?no explosions?
8:36 PM
